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October 2020

Quillette Narrated

Quillette Narrated 150 150 Greg Ellis

The Voice of Me, My Self & I

Who Am I?

This is the question ‘I’ or rather, ‘me’ asked my ‘Self’ one night in 2015 after becoming homeless and almost destitute overnight.

This philosophical root question of my Being was the first of many meaningful questions that provided meaningful answers within the hour and a half rapid fire dialectical me and my Self raced through together on iPhone notes that night.

How do I perceive myself? What is my desire? How do I realize my desire? What is meaning? If ‘it’ is raining, what is the ‘it’?   I questioned and challenged my commonly held beliefs, sought to integrate my value system, realign my behavior patters, regulate my emotions and connect with healthier feelings for the first time in my life. I communicated with my reticular activating system, communed with my insular cortex, tapped into my personal brain flow.

At forty seven years of age I was becoming an urbane pioneer in my own imagination. Illuminating my consciousness. Awakening meaning. Leaning into learning. Further extending my presence. I took stock of my emotional bank account and reconciled in the present. After all, life is remembered backwards and lived forwards yet it’s the ‘now moments’ that make us truly feel most alive…

My Pathway to Meaning

Me and my Self (the inner dialogue of my conscious conversation – or ‘inner critic’ as some refer to as  ‘Self’ ) were becoming intimately aquatinted. Becoming known to each other and Being known by each other. Me – my Being –  was becoming beloved by and with, my Self. I confided in my Self. (I call it self-conFIdence). You see, me and my Self had grown up in an atmosphere where our voice was stifled, shot down and silenced. This new philosophical journey became somewhat of a quest for me to better know my Self. In the ensuing days I questioned my politics beliefs, friendships, career, habits, past experiences, family, you name it, nothing was off limits. Me and my Self started innovating through met limits, invigorating the sense maker, evolving deeper meaning within our own thoughts as together we processed through the meaningful answers that served up ever deeper questions.

The term ‘philosophical’ is a byword for calm, long-term thinking and strength-of-mind, in short, for empowered perspective.  I was taking perceptual steps toward shifting my perspective on the night in question. While pondering the meaning filled questions, I posed an antithetical of the commonly accepted truism ‘Love is the answer.’

If ‘love is the answer’ (I ruminated) then what is the question? (answers on a postcard please). My first response to ‘If love is the answer, what is the question?’ was this – ‘the questions is, do you know thyself.” (I know, I know, Socrates got there first)

Me and my Self were becoming an enlightened trailblazer. A meaning seeker by sense making. The maker of my own sense.

My Arrival at The Nowledge

Me and my Self soon realized that we had lived a life of the ‘know it all’ and we quickly became aware we knew so little. Such is the paradox of the overly confident mind. Living an unexamined life for so long, me and my Self had lived unconsciously without knowing. By confiding in my Self, we became inwardly and quietly self-confident, unshackled from the want to express my arrogant ‘know it all’ Self. The arrogant Self was brought in from the unfeeling cold, by me.

We embraced our ignorance and sought to F-A-I-L (first attempt in learning) at every opportunity. We studied the rudiments of philosophy, the phenomenology of feelings, the concept of affect theory, non-violent communication, attended workshops at multiple institutions of note like The Meadows, The Hills and Betty Ford treatment centers, 12 step fellowship groups like AA and Al-Anon, started initiatives with The Global Wellness Institute, participated in sweat lodges, learned the code and cultures of the Cherokee and Choctaw Nations and The Crow Tribe, traveled to India twice to learn more of eastern rituals like moving meditation, forest bathing and ecotherapy and taught phenomenologically at The Parva Slum School and The Ashray Orphanage. Me and my Self, together, gave authentic flight to our newly alive free thoughts.

We started questing to find more organizations that believed as deeply in free thinking as we did.

After returning from India the second time, we came across a powerful article – A Literary Inquisition –  by Vancouver’s 2009-2011 Poet Laureate Brad Cran in the online magazine Quillette.  The essay was about how novelist Steven Galloway was smeared as a rapist, even as the case against him collapsed.

Me and my Self read more Quillette articles. We sensed this publication was operated by individuals that believed in the central tenet of freedom of speech, within an ecosystem where free thought not only lived, it flourished, no matter the political ideology. Me and my Self had found our ‘I.’ Our third if you will. One might call it the 3rd eye of perception. A vessel to speak with and through. The Other. An Other.

I emailed Claire Lehmann with a ‘what if’ proposal – to give voice to Quillette articles and, with the within a matter of weeks the podcast series Quillette Narrated was launched. The Public Humiliation Diet, Toby Young’s account of losing five positions after being targeted by a Twitter outrage mob at the beginning of 2018 was the first article recorded and there have been over thirty others published on the podcast so far. The Psychology of Progressive Hostility, Matthew Blackwell’s essay about why progressives are more hostile than conservatives when their beliefs are challenged is another, although my favorite one to record has been Divorce and the ‘Silver Bullet’ as its so close to home.

Divorce and the ‘Silver Bullet’

For the first forty seven years of my life me and my Self had little interest in reading. My new found passion for literature and my quest for deeper meaning in my life had led me to connect with members of the Intellectual Dark Web (IDW) and Quillette.

Who am I?

I am a an urbane pioneer. A sense maker. Meaning seeker. Enlightened trailblazer. Poet. Author. Artist. Actor. And anything else we – me and myself –  choose to be. We don’t have to agree with every opinion expressed in the articles published in Quillette – just ask Dave Rubin – yet the collective conversation taking place outside the main stream media outlets, not driven by propaganda and ratings, is where I prefer to reside these days. It’s afforded me fresh new perspectives.

Two years ago I considered myself most ‘woke,’ and then I started awakening from my pre-conditioned progressive idealogy. The individuation of my voice, not bullied by mob think or speech police, is an aspect of myself I cherish now.

“Speak, and risk something. remain silent, and risk something else. Pick your poison.”

I’ve picked mine, and I’m still seeking to pluck more truths from my evolving and late blossoming tree of knowledge. I’ve experienced first hand the tenacious, hard working team members of Quillette provide writers from around the globe with a platform to express their thoughts, freely, without censorship, on a myriad of culturally relevant topics. In an age of defenestration, deplatforming and person cancelling, this commitment to freedom of speech is a mission I am proud to be aligned with.

Podcasts Quillette Narrated

The ‘best of’ anthology podcast series Quillette Narrated is produced by Quillette in association with my production company Monkey Toes.

Quillette Narrated has afforded us opportunity to give voice to the many interesting literary articles, opinions and viewpoints outside main stream media. Me and my Self are very grateful to the Quillette team.

When seeking deeper meaning and purpose in life, sometimes a simple question can upset the established order of our lives, herald new awakenings, and provide new opportunities to give voice to others.


Depp vs Heard (with False Amber Alerts)

Depp vs Heard (with False Amber Alerts) 150 150 Greg Ellis


Johnny Depp has taken The Sun newspaper to court for defamation, after they published the words “Johnny Depp: Wife Beater” without any signed affidavit from Amber or evidence of the accusation. Just hearsay, or ‘Heard Say.’ 

On July 2nd Judge Andrew Nicol rejected the attempt by The Sun Newspaper to quash the libel suit, and reliable sources in the British media are telling me, off the record, that not only do the press corps believe Johnny Depp, that internally, The Sun newspaper believe this case is lost, and, more tellingly, that the managing editors of most of the tabloid, compact and possibly even broadsheet media are extremely nervous about the ramifications for them if the Sun newspaper loses this case. 

This trial could change the face of British reporting and establishment law, providing much needed relief for celebrities and citizens alike. Amber Heard took the witness stand and was cross-examined by one of the worlds most formidable and foremost legal experts on domestic violence. She gave evidence for 3 days. That was after having been in court every day of the trial thus far, even though she is not a party to Jonny’s suit. 

I believe this defamation trial is merely a pre-emptive strike back by Johnny and his team, before the bigger battle that’s set to be waged in the American courtroom, where he is suing Amber Heard for $50 million. 

So why is Johnny Depp taking Amber Heard to court? Just who is really on trial? And why am I publicly supporting him when it’s probably career suicide for me?

I believe Amber Heard rode the wave of the #MeToo movement, riddled Johnny with the silver bullet strategy of high conflict divorce, ripped his reparation to shreds like a savage and Johnny’s fighting the Quick Draw of Amber’s file and fire first and ask questions later strategy by responding in the High Court. 

Think about this…

When their marriage dissolved, Johnny Depp became the Respondent. 

Amber Heard was the Petitioner – the person who files first in Family Law. 

Positioning herself as The Petitioner – firming up her position with legal retention – is the game set and match that sparks family warfare in the star chambers of family law courtrooms and enables unscrupulous law firms, attorneys, and all the family law scavengers to plant their own money trees at the expense of families, forsaken fathers. The cash and prizes in the middle of this 3 ringed circus? Children. 

Johnny Depp adores Jack and Lily Rose. They are the meaning of his life. And family law all too often uses, and abuses our children as pawns. Johnny  is The Respondent, defending himself and his children against a most uncivil war over kids and cash. He’s valiantly attempting to protect his reputation legacy in the eyes of his children, while having been gutted by Amber Heard and the unrelenting PC and identity politics armada on the most radical ends of the #MeToo spectrum will stop at nothing. They have no mercy.

In legal parlance a respondent is a person who is called upon to issue a response to a communication made by a petitioner. The term is used in legal contexts and in psychological conditioning. A petitioner is a person who gathers signatures for psychological conditioning initiatives to present to an authority for a particular cause.

Amber made Johnny the scapegoat: a person who is blamed for the faults of others, especially for reasons of expediency.

She became the reputation savage: a ‘face saving’ person or ‘malignant disparagement strategy’ that attempts to psychologically recondition the beliefs or opinions about someone.

Her ammunition? Silver Bullets: Simple, seemingly magical, solutions to difficult problems.

And in the court of public opinion and family law, that silver bullet has had men in the crosshairs for too long now.

I’m calling out a #TimesUp on #Metoo

I’m introducing a new hashtag. 

To honor The Respondent Jack Sparrow And our filmic journey together I’m calling it #TheCode????‍☠️

Plant your Flag????‍☠️ Hoist your color high????‍☠️ Signal your support from the crows nest????‍☠️

Start sharing this new flag of honor. Let’s flash strike back to support Johnny Depp in his massive family law war battle. 

Together we can honor all our fallen fathers, forgotten fathers, forsaken fathers, lost children, lost boys and help unerase fathers from the family unit. 

Please support my drive for the expulsion of The Silver Bullet of High Conflict Divorce Strategy & the Magic Ballistics of Family Law War across the globe. 

Plant your flag today. 

Hoist your colors high. 

Speak your truth. 

Spread the cipher of the code. 

Rid family law of its legal bounty. 

Blow up this plundering of family estates. 

We are all The Respondents. 

The cash cow of domestic violence needs to become extinct, so that the real sufferers of domestic violence, the real victims, can be seen more clearly – not Heard with false Amber Alerts. 

A senior reporter from The Times of London pushed back in my interview with her recently. “But Amber Heard gave all the money she received from the divorce to charity,” she said. 

USA Today wrote that Heard eventually donated her share of the divorce settlement, about $7 million, to a charity focused on fighting domestic abuse of women. In addition to her thriving acting career she then became an ambassador on women’s rights for the American Civil Liberties Union and a spokesperson for domestic violence.

If evidence is to be believed, Amber Heard became a spokesperson for domestic violence at the same time she was committing acts of domestic violence.

That’s hardly charitable… and mostly hypocritical.